Change....

Change is inevitable and whether we like it or not, we are in a constant state of change.  

We have gone through a lot of change in 3 years and have learned so many lessons along the way.  Now don't get me wrong, I have not adjusted well to some of them well...maybe most of them.  I'm finally able to accept what has happened and move forward.   I'm not proud to say that I left God out of much of it over the last couple years. I have been a faithful believer and trusted God would take care of me which I thought meant that I wouldn't have to go through some really hard stuff.  I really like everything to flow and be happy!  I really misunderstood God's love and care because through it all, He was right there carrying me when I was screaming mad at where I was in my life.  Through God's grace and HIS grace only I realize this now and thank Him for never leaving me and for being the loving and ever present God that He is!

So change is inevitable...Here's a little snapshot of what I (we've) gone through.  My husband and a good friend, opened a business in 2007 only to close it in 2010 due to the economy and mistakes made opening a small business.  Every last dime we had was gone because we invested it and more in something we thought would take us into retirement.  We also had our boys working with us.  My son, Dallas and his family moved to Colorado for a job taking my grandchildren over a 1,000 miles away.   I was a realtor and in 2008, my business of listing homes for sale dried up so I didn't have work for the first time in 10 years.  I worked for another realtor for 6 months as an assistant and really enjoyed it.  His business was so bad that he couldn't keep me.  My husband was laid off from his job of 10 years.  My father-in-law died suddenly.  We had to buy two cars for cash (because we had no income any longer).  One car for my husband who had to turn back his company owned vehicle and one for me because my lease was up two months after my husband got laid off.  We had to file bankruptcy due to the business failure.  We attended the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University Class at church to assist us in our finances for the future. (That program is amazing!)  My dad died suddenly after being hospitalized for pneumonia.  I went back and forth to Arizona for 6 weeks to visit him before he died.  God was good...he accepted Jesus as his Savior before he died.  He had resisted church or anything Christian most of his life.  The realization that we had to sell our home and where were we going to go???  And during this time, the hubby and I were having our ups and downs.  It was not good at times.  I was a mess inside, trying to keep it all together on the outside.  AND I can tell you...it feels so good to have all of this behind me. 

So I plan to share more as the year goes by of what I learned through all of this.  It's been alot to go through but then I am reminded in God's word about how He cares for us and doesn't give us more than we can handle and if we get in a hard place, He provides a way out.  Then again, I am reminded that there are others in this world going through so much more than I.  Thank you God for taking care of me.....