Behind those Eyes

I am participating in an on-line Bible Study with a group of women from all over the US and abroad each Tuesday as we work our way through the book called:  "Behind Those Eyes", by Lisa Whittle.  I will be posting my thoughts as best I can on the chapter we study that week.  My blog will be linked to Lelia who is hosting this bible study so that you can read what the other women have learned from this study as well.  

Chapter 2:  Ms. Perfection

This chapter starts out with a family getting ready for church on Sunday morning and what it takes to get ready for that perfect entrance.  That even though things have been hectic and we've been arguing with our spouse, short with the kids, that we ALL put on the face of everything is perfect even down to what we are wearing.  

We had so many of those mornings over the years and we felt bad putting on our perfect family faces and voices but it's what you do.  I know God was not pleased  most of the mornings with our actions but was pleased that we were going to worship and fellowship. 

My conviction this week was from pg 31 where Lisa writes..."Ladies, we act like a perfect wife more than we actually are one." Oh my....yes...this is a struggle for me..my hubby and I think so differently.  He is the more emotional one and I am the black and white one.  After 30 years, we are still learning to communicate.  Because of my Ms. Perfection personality traits, I didn't always let loose and have fun. What would people think???  I am now finally letting loose more...my boys have helped with that but now my husband is learning to live with the new me.  I am trying to be a better wife NOT a perfect one!

Lisa wrote on page 37 ..."I am not perfect, and I don't try to be anymore.  Trying to be perfect is so exhausting, and there never an end to it."  AMEN to that...It took me a long time and lots of stress to realize that I CANNOT do it ALL!!  I cannot compare myself to the woman who can do more than me, looks greater than me, volunteers for everything and still has it together.  I am me and I am ok with it!

Our Challenge Question:  Search your heart.  Is it more important for you to be seen as perfect in a certain area...or seen as real?  I think we need to be real to make a difference for Christ.  How can we share Christ if we are not real?  I still struggle to be real because I don't want to be hurt, or talked about or seen as weak.  I'm working on it though and letting people in to my life on a deeper level.  On that note...I go in for surgery tomorrow...please pray for my nervousness as this is my first surgery ever and for the doctor's hand to do the operation right and for quick healing. Thank you.

Thank you Lelia for hosting this study and for being real!  Love ya,  Connie